Worn out from this week. Had 3 test and I already know I totally bombed my Trig one because I blanked out. I've been studying my butt off this week and i'm just very exhausted. Week's like these make me want to seriously just leave college alone but I don't have the guts to do that because i'm not a failure nor a quitter. I also have to make a decision between going to fashion week or go to Panama City for spring break. Can't do both money wise but i'm leaning towards PC because I've never been on a road trip and went somewhere for spring break with friend(s). But going to fashion week is a huge deal because i'm trying to get started in my fashion career so this would be a great step for me to experience fashion shows and gaining ideas for fashion. And so I am stuck with the decision to have fun or get down to business.

Exciting Events Coming Up !

I feel that this spring is very eventful for me. I celebrated my 20th birthday this month first off, it was definitely a better birthday then I had last year. I was alone and had no friends last year in the area which means my birthday was pretty depressing and lonely. Next this upcoming February i'm going to Orlando Fashion Week which i'm super excited about because I love fashion. It's all I really want to do to be quite frank. I'm in school for medical field job but fashion is my career and passion in which I will fulfill while I'm in school. Well anyways, next is March and it's my mothers birthday so i'm gonna surprise her around her birthday by coming home unannounced. Also in March my favorite singer Jhene Aiko is coming out with her debut album "Souled Out". Im so excited I love her so much ( She told me she loved me on twitter, so I feel kinda special). Any who, I am mostly excited for April because i'm going to see Rihanna in concert !!! Beyond excited to see her because  love her too much. Me along with some friends of mine have our lil fake crushes on her and we are in a way a lil obsessed with Rihanna. I think majority of girls have a slight crush on Rihanna; she just has that affect on the world I guess. The concert is a week before finals which I am nervous about but i'm sure I will make ends meet somehow. The most important thing about spring term is that I have to get all my things together to transfer to UCF come fall. Im excited to finally be at UCF, not so much excited about the tuition of course. Oh and I hope I have money to do a spring break trip because I refuse to stay here or go back home. Well, I think thats about all for my rant about my spring. Bye !

Sick

Well I've had the flu all week now and it sucks. I feel horrible and I'm finding it really hard to do my school work while doing this. I had to miss 3 classes this past week because of the flu and I never miss classes. I hope this is completely out my system by time classes start back again. Thank God for having Monday off ! That is all.

Happiness

I never knew what happiness was or what it felt like until now. I'm finally feeling good about my life and I love it. Not worrying about what others think, finding who I am, knowing what I want outta life, and experiencing new things. I know God has some trials coming my way and I'm scared but they are only to make me stronger. It's been a rough life for me even though it may not have looked like it to others but it has. I'm happy how my life is now and that's all that matters now.